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Heartbreak

On: March 25, 2023

In: Emotions, Me, Personal, Relationship

Tagged: Distant love, Heartbreak, Leo, Leon, love, relationship, relationships, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart

My life is no longer full of you.All that remains are empty spaces.Holes from a family, life, and love that existed but you threw away. My heartbreak is endless, excruciating, and breathtaking.Continue Reading

First night without you

On: March 25, 2023

In: Emotions, Leon, Me, Personal, Relationship

Tagged: dating, Distant love, Finding love, Heartbreak, Leo, Leon, love, relationships

This was my first night without you in years… I am in excruciating pain. Feeling so deeply wounded. So sick. I have been vomiting and having painful diarrhea for almost 24 hours. I miss you! I miss our 5 billion moments together every day and night! Continue Reading

Spring Hill Tennessee is coming

On: March 20, 2023

In: Spring Hill TN

Tagged: General Motors, GM Transfer, Leo, Leon, Moving, Spring Hill, TN

The company Leon works for, GM offers transfers every so often to other plants. After years of discussing the possibility of taking it and living someplace else, he hit the button and said yes.Continue Reading

Ummm, yeah really… Some females are the worst

On: December 18, 2022

In: Chrissy

Tagged: Abusive siblings, Awful Mom, Bad Mom, Chrissy, CP, EJ, Kids, Leo, Leon, Neglectful parenting

7 minutes down the road and get a phone call from him and he is hyperventilating. He is screaming and so upset it is distressingContinue Reading

What you find when snooping

On: July 8, 2020

In: Chrissy, Leon, Personal, What happens when...

Tagged: Cheater, Chrissy, Leo, Leon, Liar, Liars, Online cheating, pandoras box, privacy, risk, Rub my back, snooping, text cheating, texting, texts

I have always prided myself on respecting other people’s privacy but I recently had a moment of violating the privacy of another. What happens when you violate a person’s privacy? You run the risk of finding out information that can emotionally hurt you! And here we are… I violate privacyContinue Reading

After everything gets crazy

On: November 19, 2019

In: Leon, Personal, Relationship

Tagged: Leo, Leon, relationship

Here is a tiny run down of what has been going on here: * Finishing the move * My son got his tonsils and adenoids removed * I got my wisdom teeth pulled and experienced an infection and dry socket * Unpacking a ton * Ups and downs of beingContinue Reading

The phone call

On: August 16, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: After thought phone call, Leo, summer of Leo

My last post was all about how you didn’t call. It was the end of my day around 11:30 or so and you had yet to call me and say goodnight. I figured you were asleep! 3 minutes to midnight the phone rang and it was you. Leo called whileContinue Reading

Crying today

On: August 11, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, Chemistry, constantly alone but dating, crushing my own heart, family, family cooking fun, Family fun, Finding love, Finding my filling, fucking, fucking a guy, Fun, fun in the kitchen, Games of the heart, getting fucked, Having a Family, having some fun, Heartbreak, I need love, I need time, investing in love, kiss, kisses, Lasting Relationships, Learning to love, Leo, Longing for something, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, Lust, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, no time for me, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, promises, Protecting my heart, relationship, relationship goals, relationships that will not progress, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, sex without heart, sex without love, summer flings, summer of Leo, talking, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart, trying to leash my feelings, Waiting, waiting for you, waiting for your love, waiting to be loved, Why dont you love me, wishing you would love me

I love your body. I love how you feel inside me. I love your lips! I love how our bodies make love, screw, fuck, have mind blowing sex… It is always so exciting, wonderful, explosive, emotional, and relieving!Continue Reading

Another night alone…

On: August 7, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, a little bit of everything about my life, Abuse, all the funny crazy things that happen when you are a single mom trying to date in your 40s, avoidance, Begin Again, being lied to, Boundaries, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, communication, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Distant love, exs, Finding love, Finding my filling, Games of the heart, great sex, hard to love, hating dating, Hating the dating, having some fun, health, Heart, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, honesty, how to destroy love for a person that hurts you, lack of communication, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Learning to love, Leo, Longing for something, Loss, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, Lust, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, Protecting my heart, redirection, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, Respect, RL, Self-Destruct, Self-Destruct Button, Self-Destruction, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, sex with no orgasm, summer flings, summer of Leo, Talking less equals less relationship, Talking less equals no love, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart

To start I bleached my kitchen completely. Then I bleached the dining room. Then I cleaned the floors by hand with bleach. Then got cleaned up and got in bed ALONE! Am I really so unwanted or unlovable? I refuse to drown my sad lonely feelings in random meaningless sexContinue Reading

My self-destruct button

On: August 5, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, a little bit of everything about my life, Abuse, all the funny crazy things that happen when you are a single mom trying to date in your 40s, avoidance, Begin Again, being lied to, Boundaries, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, communication, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Distant love, exs, Finding love, Finding my filling, Games of the heart, great sex, hard to love, hating dating, Hating the dating, having some fun, health, Heart, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, honesty, how to destroy love for a person that hurts you, lack of communication, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Learning to love, Leo, Longing for something, Loss, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, Lust, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, Protecting my heart, redirection, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, Respect, RL, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, sex with no orgasm, summer flings, summer of Leo, Talking less equals less relationship, Talking less equals no love, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart

Several years ago when I was feeling really bad about myself I met a guy who was really easy to have sex with and nothing else. No relationship, no chatting, nothing more than crazy rough semi-abusive sex and poof he would be gone. I wouldn’t need to do any ofContinue Reading

Another lonely night

On: August 4, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, constantly alone but dating, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Digital Relationships, Digital Relationships vs Real Life Relationships, Distant love, Finding love, Finding my filling, Games of the heart, grass is greener, grass is greener on the other side, Grass is greener where you water it, grass isn't always greener on the other side, hard to love, hating dating, Hating the dating, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, how to destroy love for a person that hurts you, idea of love, investing in love, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Learning to love, Leo, Lonely nights, Longing for something, love, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, Protecting my heart, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, Respect, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer flings, summer of Leo, talking, Talking less equals less relationship, Talking less equals no love, The Leave

Why am I not single? I just don’t understand why not just be single because I spend 65% of my time alone and almost every night of the week in bed alone so why am I dating Leo? I get so lonely at night and it is really hard toContinue Reading

The less I talk = the further from the relationship I am

On: August 3, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 3 steps forward and 2 steps back, 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, avoidance, Begin Again, checking my heart, Chemistry, communication, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Distant love, Finding love, grass is greener on the other side, Grass is greener where you water it, grass isn't always greener on the other side, hard to love, hating dating, Hating the dating, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, honesty, how to destroy love for a person that hurts you, investing in love, lack of communication, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Learning to love, Leo, Longing for something, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, mixed signals, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, Protecting my heart, relationship, relationship goals, RL, summer flings, summer of Leo, Talking less equals less relationship, Talking less equals no love, The Leave, Trust

I am a very verbal person and I don’t pull any punches about that fact. I need that verbal connection and I need it regularly. I honestly tell everyone that the more I feel unable to communicate with a person the more out of the relationship I will be. LeoContinue Reading

What to do when you are dating someone who doesn’t really parent…

On: August 3, 2019

In: Kids, Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, avoidance, Boundaries, communication, dating, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, family, Family fun, Fun, getting out of the house, hating dating, Hating the dating, Having a Family, having some fun, honesty, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, mom, mom mode, Neglected, Neglectful parenting, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, relationship, relationships, Respect, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer fun, summer of Leo, the mom mode

Last night we decided to take all of the kids to a drive-in movie at Vintage Drive-in. They were showing Lion King and Aladdin. The night was off to a bit of a rocky start as Leo’s son was not happy about eating the pulled chicken I made for everyoneContinue Reading

Last ditch effort

On: July 31, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 3 steps forward and 2 steps back, 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, avoidance, being lied to, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, Dating as a single mom, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, family, Family fun, great sex, lack of communication, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, Longing for something, Loss, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, redirection, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, Respect, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer of Leo

Black and white: I think of relationships like this… If a couple loves each other -> I love you, think you love me. If a couple can agree on the fundamentals (not in order of importance): Lifestyle (Housing, cleanliness, personal hygiene, etc) Children (parenting styles, discipline, priorities, etc) Future (goalsContinue Reading

4th day in NYC and making our way back Upstate

On: July 29, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: Big Apple, Bucket list, Bucket List trip to NYC, Dreaming of being a tourist, great laughs, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, love, Love New York City, Love NYC, New York City, NYC trip, NYC trip of my dreams, NYC with Leo, NYC with my love, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer fun, summer of Leo, Tourist Attractions

3rd day in the big apple NYC

On: July 28, 2019

In: Personal

Today started out late again because we both slept in but we didn’t sleep in as late as yesterday! We were up and out by 10 am and walking around the Rockefeller Center area near our hotel. We took a few pictures and made a plan for what we wantedContinue Reading

2nd day in NYC

On: July 27, 2019

In: Personal

Today we woke up late and found a beautiful day in front of us! Our hotel have an awesome feature: Walk out the door right into Rockefeller Center! We didn’t know at the time how wonderful that would start out our mornings. Around 10 am we walked out of ourContinue Reading

First day in NYC

On: July 26, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: Big Apple, Bucket list, Bucket List trip to NYC, Dreaming of being a tourist, great laughs, kingshawaiianrocks, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, love, Love New York City, Love NYC, New York City, NYC trip, NYC trip of my dreams, NYC with Leo, NYC with my love, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer fun, summer of Leo, Tourist Attractions

We arrived this morning around 4:30 am and decided to take a little time driving around the city and get our bearings. The city at 5 am is a very different place from any other town/city you will ever visit! Our first planned fun for our day was to goContinue Reading

Bucket List Trip to NYC

On: July 25, 2019

In: Bucket List, Personal

Tagged: Big Apple, Bucket list, Bucket List trip to NYC, concert, Concert in the Park series by GMA, Concerts, Dreaming of being a tourist, GMA Concert in the Park, Good Morning America, great laughs, kingshawaiianrocks, Lady Antabellum, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, love, Love New York City, Love NYC, New York City, NYC trip, NYC trip of my dreams, NYC with Leo, NYC with my love, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer fun, summer of Leo, Tourist Attractions

Well, it has always been my dream to live in NYC but in all of my trips there I have never done any of the touristy things… I am now leaving for a NYC trip of my dreams. Leo and I are planning several things that are on my bucketContinue Reading

Tired of the avoidance and redirection…

On: July 15, 2019

In: Personal

So Leo and I have been dating almost 6 months now… We have had a ton of great laughs, great sex, fun family times, and amazingly long depthful talks. It has been a wonderful time BUT in every relationship progress needs to happen, “real” discussions need to occur, bare transparencyContinue Reading