Why am I not single? I just don’t understand why not just be single because I spend 65% of my time alone and almost every night of the week in bed alone so why am I dating Leo?
I get so lonely at night and it is really hard to have nobody in my life… Why haven’t I ended things yet with Leo? Why can’t I stop myself from loving him? It is starting to get better. Tonight I actually almost told Dan he could come over. I am still on the fence about it so that I have someone to hold me.
The more Leo stays away, doesn’t want me, neglects me… the less and less I am wanting to have him in my life. These feelings of eternal loneliness will get better once I get single again and Leo is pushing me really close to single.