All of my friends tell me I am not lonely. My therapist tells me I am angry, and it makes the loneliness feel bigger. My Ma always said I am not lonely because I have all my kids. I have always had moments of feeling alone. I have experienced relationshipsContinue Reading

Why am I not single? I just don’t understand why not just be single because I spend 65% of my time alone and almost every night of the week in bed alone so why am I dating Leo? I get so lonely at night and it is really hard toContinue Reading

Last night we decided to take all of the kids to a drive-in movie at Vintage Drive-in. They were showing Lion King and Aladdin. The night was off to a bit of a rocky start as Leo’s son was not happy about eating the pulled chicken I made for everyoneContinue Reading

Black and white: I think of relationships like this… If a couple loves each other  ->   I love you, think you love me. If a couple can agree on the fundamentals (not in order of importance): Lifestyle (Housing, cleanliness, personal hygiene, etc) Children (parenting styles, discipline, priorities, etc) Future (goalsContinue Reading

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Today started out late again because we both slept in but we didn’t sleep in as late as yesterday! We were up and out by 10 am and walking around the Rockefeller Center area near our hotel. We took a few pictures and made a plan for what we wantedContinue Reading

Today we woke up late and found a beautiful day in front of us! Our hotel have an awesome feature: Walk out the door right into Rockefeller Center! We didn’t know at the time how wonderful that would start out our mornings. Around 10 am we walked out of ourContinue Reading

We arrived this morning around 4:30 am and decided to take a little time driving around the city and get our bearings. The city at 5 am is a very different place from any other town/city you will ever visit! Our first planned fun for our day was to goContinue Reading

Well, it has always been my dream to live in NYC but in all of my trips there I have never done any of the touristy things… I am now leaving for a NYC trip of my dreams. Leo and I are planning several things that are on my bucketContinue Reading

So Leo and I have been dating almost 6 months now… We have had a ton of great laughs, great sex, fun family times, and amazingly long depthful talks. It has been a wonderful time BUT in every relationship progress needs to happen, “real” discussions need to occur, bare transparencyContinue Reading

I have never been a bullshiter. I am very good at saying what I need and want from the people around me. With that in mind if I say I need communication, regular kisses, regular sex, 2+ nights a week sleeping together… I will give clarification if needed but thenContinue Reading

After 1 minute that lasted 8+ hours Leo calls me and while I am agitated at things from my day it didn’t help that you got upset at every word I said! Then I was an asshole and abruptly got off the phone: Okay have a good night, phone hangup!Continue Reading

Every time I feel like we are making progress he does something so clearly to make me feel like no progress has been made. Perfect example: Several nights in a row he has called, and showed up… He even surprised me with dinner the one night. Both nights he fellContinue Reading

Woke up with Leo in bed next to me… and wanting to have sex. I am always up for some sex but this morning really felt like a: he needed to finish and not go to work loaded… Whatever, we had sex a little bit and then he finished alone…Continue Reading

Third Eye Blind, Jimmy Eat World, and Ra Ra Riot were the artists playing! I was mostly excited to see Jimmy Eat World because the song I dedicate to my Ma is by them. Jimmy Eat World – Hear You Me Well Leo was late arriving at my house butContinue Reading

It has been a straining several days and I wasn’t looking forward to the awkward drive from my house to the lake 50 minutes away with Leo and the kids. Leo has been avoiding relationship discussions for weeks now and as we are at the 6 month period I feltContinue Reading

I am so exhausted with the games… Friday night was great… we did dinner, played with the kids, and had a great “family” night. Saturday morning was even better… After sex for hours we both fell asleep to wake up wrapped around one another! We both tag teamed to getContinue Reading

I am already prepared for the moment you leave me…Already hardening my heart and foresee you leaving me in the future to go back to her. In that vision I have you leave me and return to her only to realize my love is, was, and would always leave youContinue Reading

When you are in your 40’s and a single mother of 5 kids that range from 5 up to 22 years of age dating is not an exciting prospect. You are virtually starting your life over and finally think you are ready for the dating scene… Backstory: I was marriedContinue Reading