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Sticking up for my kid’s mental health

On: July 29, 2022

In: Dysfunction, Family, Kids, Leon, My Kids, Parenting, Personal

Tagged: emotional struggles, family, Kids, Leon, misunderstood, struggles

The other day we all went to the ice cream place for family ice cream. It was Leon, the four kids, and Leon’s Aunt and parents. The night was going well until Elyjah (Leon’s son) started behaving in a way that was a bit childish. He was digging in theContinue Reading

All the secrets I have been keeping

On: October 30, 2019

In: Family, Personal, Secrets, Trauma

Tagged: All the secrets I keep, Anthony, Bio-mom, family, my life, Natalie, purging, purging secrets, secrets

I have spent 40 some odd years insisting I am moral and honest but in actuality, I have been keeping so many secrets all my life… Let the purge begin… * My 1st cousin tried to stick something in me sexually when we were 12. * When I was 10Continue Reading

Crying today

On: August 11, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, Chemistry, constantly alone but dating, crushing my own heart, family, family cooking fun, Family fun, Finding love, Finding my filling, fucking, fucking a guy, Fun, fun in the kitchen, Games of the heart, getting fucked, Having a Family, having some fun, Heartbreak, I need love, I need time, investing in love, kiss, kisses, Lasting Relationships, Learning to love, Leo, Longing for something, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, Lust, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, no time for me, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, promises, Protecting my heart, relationship, relationship goals, relationships that will not progress, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, sex without heart, sex without love, summer flings, summer of Leo, talking, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart, trying to leash my feelings, Waiting, waiting for you, waiting for your love, waiting to be loved, Why dont you love me, wishing you would love me

I love your body. I love how you feel inside me. I love your lips! I love how our bodies make love, screw, fuck, have mind blowing sex… It is always so exciting, wonderful, explosive, emotional, and relieving!Continue Reading

Waking up next to you

On: August 10, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, a little bit of everything about my life, broken promises, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, constantly alone but dating, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Digital Relationships, Digital Relationships vs Real Life Relationships, Distant love, family, Finding love, Finding my filling, getting fucked, great sex, Having a Family, Heart, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, how to destroy love for a person that hurts you, I need attention, I need love, I need time, investing in love, keeping my feelings on a leash, kiss, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Learning to love, Lonely nights, Longing for something, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, nevering showing up, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, promises, Protecting my heart, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, relationships that will not progress, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, sex without heart, sex without love, summer of Leo, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart, trying to leash my feelings, Waiting, waiting for you, waiting for your love, waiting to be loved, Why dont you love me, wishing you would love me

The day was emotional, long, full of heart filled conversation. Today was the closest I have ever felt to a happy and healthy family of my own and now I cannot sleep. It was a wonderful night and you are always amazing with my kids. Dinner at the table asContinue Reading

Working every day to try and kill off the wife switch

On: August 6, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, a little bit of everything about my life, broken promises, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, constantly alone but dating, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Digital Relationships, Digital Relationships vs Real Life Relationships, Distant love, family, Finding love, Finding my filling, getting fucked, great sex, Having a Family, Heart, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, how to destroy love for a person that hurts you, I need attention, I need love, I need time, investing in love, keeping my feelings on a leash, killing the wife mode, Killing the wife mode switch, kiss, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Learning to love, Lonely nights, Longing for something, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, nevering showing up, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, promises, Protecting my heart, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, relationships that will not progress, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, sex without heart, sex without love, summer of Leo, The Leave, the wife switch, Tragedy of the heart, trying to leash my feelings, Waiting, waiting for you, waiting for your love, waiting to be loved, Why dont you love me, wife, wife mode, wife mode does not turn off, wife switch, wishing you would love me

I have been a wife and mother most of my life. I have never had a time when I wasn’t raising kids or taking care of a full household like a wife. This is the first time I am really NOT a wife and it feels virtually impossible to turnContinue Reading

What to do when you are dating someone who doesn’t really parent…

On: August 3, 2019

In: Kids, Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, avoidance, Boundaries, communication, dating, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, family, Family fun, Fun, getting out of the house, hating dating, Hating the dating, Having a Family, having some fun, honesty, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, mom, mom mode, Neglected, Neglectful parenting, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, relationship, relationships, Respect, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer fun, summer of Leo, the mom mode

Last night we decided to take all of the kids to a drive-in movie at Vintage Drive-in. They were showing Lion King and Aladdin. The night was off to a bit of a rocky start as Leo’s son was not happy about eating the pulled chicken I made for everyoneContinue Reading

Last ditch effort

On: July 31, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 3 steps forward and 2 steps back, 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, avoidance, being lied to, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, Dating as a single mom, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, family, Family fun, great sex, lack of communication, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, Longing for something, Loss, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, redirection, relationship, relationship goals, relationships, Respect, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer of Leo

Black and white: I think of relationships like this… If a couple loves each other -> I love you, think you love me. If a couple can agree on the fundamentals (not in order of importance): Lifestyle (Housing, cleanliness, personal hygiene, etc) Children (parenting styles, discipline, priorities, etc) Future (goalsContinue Reading

Tired of the avoidance and redirection…

On: July 15, 2019

In: Personal

So Leo and I have been dating almost 6 months now… We have had a ton of great laughs, great sex, fun family times, and amazingly long depthful talks. It has been a wonderful time BUT in every relationship progress needs to happen, “real” discussions need to occur, bare transparencyContinue Reading

3 steps forward… 2 steps back… every time without fail

On: July 10, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 3 steps forward and 2 steps back, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Digital Relationships, Digital Relationships vs Real Life Relationships, family, Having a Family, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Leo, marriage and family, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, relationship, relationships, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer flings, summer of Leo

Every time I feel like we are making progress he does something so clearly to make me feel like no progress has been made. Perfect example: Several nights in a row he has called, and showed up… He even surprised me with dinner the one night. Both nights he fellContinue Reading

Flat Johnny

On: July 9, 2019

In: Family Favorite Stuff, Kids, Personal

Tagged: #FlatJohnny2019, #FlatKidsAdventure2019, family, Family fun, Flat kid adventures, Flat kid adventures 2019, Flat Stanley personalized

Flat Johnny has already been having fun! He is playing in flowers, test driving vehicles, meeting new coworkers, making business calls and more… And RL Johnny is laughing at all the selfie texts he has been getting from his flat!#FlatJohnny2019#FlatKidsAdventure2019Continue Reading

3rd of July ring of fire excitement…

On: July 4, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 3 steps forward and 2 steps back, 40 something single mom and dating, 40 something single mom and hating the dating, 4th of July, all the funny crazy things that happen when you are a single mom trying to date in your 40s, Begin Again, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, Chemistry, Chrissy, communication, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating as a single mom, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, family, Family Fireworks, Family fun, Family night out, Finding love, Finding my filling, Fireworks, Fourth of July, Fun, getting married, getting out of the house, goals, great laughs, great sex, hard to love, hating dating, Hating the dating, Having a Family, having some fun, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, honesty, how to destroy love for a person that hurts you, investing in love, kiss, kisses, lack of communication, Lasting Relationships, learning the ropes of dating in your 40s, Learning to love, Leo, life goals, Longing for something, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, marriage, marriage and family, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, Playing with my heart, Preparing to be hurt, Protecting my heart, redirection, relationship, relationship goals, Respect, ring of fire, sex, sex with a guy who doesnt want you, sex with no orgasm, single mode, single mom, single mom dating, single mom trying to date, summer flings, summer fun, summer of Leo, talking, The Leave, Trust

It has been a straining several days and I wasn’t looking forward to the awkward drive from my house to the lake 50 minutes away with Leo and the kids. Leo has been avoiding relationship discussions for weeks now and as we are at the 6 month period I feltContinue Reading