Heartbreak
2023-03-25
My life is no longer full of you.All that remains are empty spaces.Holes from a family, life, and love that existed but you threw away. My heartbreak is endless, excruciating, and breathtaking.Continue Reading
First night without you
2023-03-25
This was my first night without you in years… I am in excruciating pain. Feeling so deeply wounded. So sick. I have been vomiting and having painful diarrhea for almost 24 hours. I miss you! I miss our 5 billion moments together every day and night! Continue Reading
Suffocating emotional pain
2023-03-23
As I have watched Leon pack all week long I am looking around my empty bedroom and so deeply hurting! I already miss him more than I ever thought possible and he is still here until tomorrow! Please tell me things will work out and we will build a beautifulContinue Reading
Is the world crumbling around me
2023-03-22
In the past week, everything has gotten HUGE! Leon is leaving this week and moving to Tennessee. My friend is moving. My other friend is away for a while supporting her son who is having a heart transplant. Leon’s family is really alienating me. My transmission is about to die…Continue Reading
After everything gets crazy
2019-11-19
Here is a tiny run down of what has been going on here: * Finishing the move * My son got his tonsils and adenoids removed * I got my wisdom teeth pulled and experienced an infection and dry socket * Unpacking a ton * Ups and downs of beingContinue Reading
Am I scared to be lonely
2019-11-05
All of my friends tell me I am not lonely. My therapist tells me I am angry, and it makes the loneliness feel bigger. My Ma always said I am not lonely because I have all my kids. I have always had moments of feeling alone. I have experienced relationshipsContinue Reading
Old writings from mid to late ’90s
2017-04-02
It is strange to read things I wrote in my early to mid-twenties. I have been emotionally beaten down so badly yet I still seemed to be hopeful and full of heart! Now all these years later I am still very much the same fundamentally! Neato! An Idea Of LoveContinue Reading