Was put on an emergency dose of Bupropion HCL XL 150 MG to try and help the sinkhole I have started to emotionally sink into. Some people are a bit worried about me and because I am very self-aware I am worried myself so I agreed to take this pillContinue Reading
My life is no longer full of you.All that remains are empty spaces.Holes from a family, life, and love that existed but you threw away. My heartbreak is endless, excruciating, and breathtaking.Continue Reading
This was my first night without you in years… I am in excruciating pain. Feeling so deeply wounded. So sick. I have been vomiting and having painful diarrhea for almost 24 hours. I miss you! I miss our 5 billion moments together every day and night! Continue Reading
As I have watched Leon pack all week long I am looking around my empty bedroom and so deeply hurting! I already miss him more than I ever thought possible and he is still here until tomorrow! Please tell me things will work out and we will build a beautifulContinue Reading
In the past week, everything has gotten HUGE! Leon is leaving this week and moving to Tennessee. My friend is moving. My other friend is away for a while supporting her son who is having a heart transplant. Leon’s family is really alienating me. My transmission is about to die…Continue Reading
The black pit of despair that is filled with an empty feeling caused such physical distress that my bodyContinue Reading
My son, 24 this past January, moved out last night. Just for the details: My son is Autistic, abusive towards me, irresponsible, and 24. Several years ago he moved out with my love and support. I even continued to pay his phone bill and go to his apartment and wakeContinue Reading
Every year for the past few years we have all gone to Seabreeze amusement park as a big family adventure. Leon’s dad treats and it is a blast. This year was really interesting because his dad isn’t speaking to me. It was really uncomfortable to try and speak to someoneContinue Reading
For most of my life, I have been a hardcore gamer. My definition of being a hardcore gamer is a person who spends time strategizing, building, enjoying gaming. The typical gaming choice for me is strategic wargames. I used to love Age of Empires (all the versions), GoW, and similarContinue Reading
I was now completely on my own, renting a room from a women in a nearby town. I was still working and starting college when I got home one day and saw a girl and her boyfriend in the kitchen. The women I was renting from had a daughter andContinue Reading
OLD STUFF As part of me starting to move on, become stronger, grow, and let things out to help me forgive I wanted to write my story. In the beginning, there was a man and women who were together as just a fling. My father loved my mother but myContinue Reading
