Am I predictable or what? A guy I had a relationship with contacts me… Are you dating someone? Yes I am. Would you see me either way? If I run into you I would see you but not screw you! You sure you could resist me? Yepper. I miss kissingContinue Reading

This summer I decided to try something new and possibly fun for the kids… I drew, printed, laminated, and cut out flat versions of all three of my kids. Then sent them out to friends locally and several other states. I have now sent out 3 of each of myContinue Reading

Woke up with Leo in bed next to me… and wanting to have sex. I am always up for some sex but this morning really felt like a: he needed to finish and not go to work loaded… Whatever, we had sex a little bit and then he finished alone…Continue Reading

Third Eye Blind, Jimmy Eat World, and Ra Ra Riot were the artists playing! I was mostly excited to see Jimmy Eat World because the song I dedicate to my Ma is by them. Jimmy Eat World – Hear You Me Well Leo was late arriving at my house butContinue Reading

It has been a straining several days and I wasn’t looking forward to the awkward drive from my house to the lake 50 minutes away with Leo and the kids. Leo has been avoiding relationship discussions for weeks now and as we are at the 6 month period I feltContinue Reading

What is a digital based relationship and are they any good for our society? We can start by saying there is a HUGE difference between a fully digital based relationship and a semi-digital relationship. The one is completely in digital forums: text, phone, Facebook, Instagram, dating apps… etc. The otherContinue Reading

I am so exhausted with the games… Friday night was great… we did dinner, played with the kids, and had a great “family” night. Saturday morning was even better… After sex for hours we both fell asleep to wake up wrapped around one another! We both tag teamed to getContinue Reading

I am already prepared for the moment you leave me…Already hardening my heart and foresee you leaving me in the future to go back to her. In that vision I have you leave me and return to her only to realize my love is, was, and would always leave youContinue Reading

After 2 weeks and 3 days of crazy tech support, lots of phone calls, and misery because switching to the new cell phone service provider (Spectrum) is finally over because I fixed everything.  I went into the developer settings and changed them allowing me to change how the phone wouldContinue Reading

I keep waiting for you to show up.Waiting for you to show your love for me.Hoping that how I show up for you will be how you show up for me.Promises that you will call and then no calls received.Promises that you will show up and spend time with meContinue Reading

Today after over 4 hours of debating on the phone with Jenna we are discussing starting a YouTube channel for our debates. This is really exciting!  I hope that we actually at least try it a few times.  It could be fun, exciting, interesting…  money making! Yeeeehaw!Continue Reading

What good is being in a relationship with someone when I end up alone every night? I feel like I am still seeing Joe!  Always something better to do than to spend time with me.  Always more important things going on.  More priorities that are on the list while IContinue Reading

My brains compartmentalization and how it is represented in drawing format. This is on a small scale.  Some are completely empty waiting to be filled with situations I do not want to ever look at, think about, or see.  Others are already filled and teetering on the top or bottomContinue Reading

It was a nice day.  We went to Red Robin with Leo and his family.  Jordan got injured when she slipped because the floors were extremely slippery and she bonked her chin on the table.  Tonight Leo called to talk before he went to bed and after saying “There isContinue Reading

Today I left him alone knowing that he had 3 lacrosse games for Elyjah in Canandaigua and then when I heard from him it was very short sounding so I replied in kind.  He was very upset and when I dropped by around 9:30pm to give him the Father’s DayContinue Reading

Today I went to the OBGYN first thing after I got the kids on the school bus.  I have been having some female issues including swelling of my full female area, a few bumps, internal pain, breast pain…  I had started taking an over the counter yeast infection medication whichContinue Reading

Today was AMAZING!  The day started out slow and we were running late but once we arrived in Alexandria Bay, NY the day got awesome.  Nino, Renata (his wife), Andrew, Samantha, Leo, Jordan, Hannah, Johnny, and I were all there together! Leo paid for the boat ride for all ofContinue Reading

Tonight Leo and I were talking on the phone for a while and he said:  Is it bad that right now I really wish you were in my bed with me so we could have sex.  I replied with:  Well, do you want me to come over for a quickie?Continue Reading