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Waiting

On: June 18, 2019

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, Begin Again, being lied to, broken promises, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, constantly alone but dating, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Distant love, Finding my filling, Games of the heart, hard to love, hating dating, Hating the dating, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, I need attention, I need love, I need time, investing in love, Leo, Lies, Lonely nights, Longing for something, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, nevering showing up, no call, no time for me, Playing with my heart, promises, relationship, relationship goals, summer of Leo, Tragedy of the heart, Waiting, waiting for you, waiting for your love, waiting to be loved, you are nonexistent

I keep waiting for you to show up.Waiting for you to show your love for me.Hoping that how I show up for you will be how you show up for me.Promises that you will call and then no calls received.Promises that you will show up and spend time with meContinue Reading

Alone again

On: June 17, 2019

In: Personal

What good is being in a relationship with someone when I end up alone every night? I feel like I am still seeing Joe! Always something better to do than to spend time with me. Always more important things going on. More priorities that are on the list while IContinue Reading

Bad day with Leo

On: June 15, 2019

In: Personal

Tagged: 40 something single mom and dating, Begin Again, being lied to, broken promises, can heartbreak cause actual heartbreak, constantly alone but dating, crushing my own heart, dating, dating a guy who just isnt into you, Dating in 2010s, Dating in your 40s, Dating Sucks, Distant love, Finding my filling, fucking, fucking a guy, Games of the heart, getting fucked, hard to love, hating dating, Hating the dating, Heartbreak, hes just not that into you, I need attention, I need love, I need time, investing in love, keeping my feelings on a leash, Leo, Lies, Lonely nights, Longing for something, love, Love Games, love is difficult when you are planning for the leave, mixed signals, need kisses, needing to be kissed, Neglected, neglectful relationship, Neglectful Relationships, nevering showing up, no call, no time for me, Playing with my heart, promises, relationship, relationship goals, relationships that will not progress, sex, sex without heart, sex without love, summer of Leo, Tragedy of the heart, trying to leash my feelings, Waiting, waiting for you, waiting for your love, waiting to be loved, Why dont you love me, wishing you would love me, you are nonexistent

Today I left him alone knowing that he had 3 lacrosse games for Elyjah in Canandaigua and then when I heard from him it was very short sounding so I replied in kind. He was very upset and when I dropped by around 9:30pm to give him the Father’s DayContinue Reading

An old writing to Brett…

On: August 21, 2018

In: Personal

Tagged: Abuse, Abusers with no consequences, Andrew and Samanthas Dad, being lied to, Boundaries, Brett, child abuse, communication, Custody Battles, Divorce, Domestic Violence, Family Physical Abuse, Fear, Finding love, Heartbreak, Lasting Relationships, Lies, looks, love, Married Young and Abused, money, monroe county, Monroe County NYS, My Book, NYS, NYS Domestic Violence, Old, old writings, oldies, OP, Orders of Protection, Parental and Spousal Abuse, Protecting my heart, relationship, Respect, sex, Spousal Abuse

From around 2001-2002 Sometimes I am hurting because I still can’t understand why exactly you did all of the things that you have done. I know at this point I will never look at you as the man that I thought I once knew. After all of the stuff andContinue Reading

Ask Yourself These Questions!

On: July 30, 2018

In: Personal

Written around 1999-2001 Now, to start I would like to tell you all a little story that happened to me a long time ago! It all started one night while I was laying in bed with my husband after a long day of arguing. It all started when we gotContinue Reading

Abusers that get away without consequences

On: June 7, 2018

In: Personal

Tagged: Abuse, Abusers with no consequences, Andrew and Samanthas Dad, being lied to, Boundaries, Brett, child abuse, Custody Battles, Divorce, Domestic Violence, Family Physical Abuse, Heartbreak, Lies, Married Young and Abused, monroe county, Monroe County NYS, My Book, NYS, NYS Domestic Violence, OP, Orders of Protection, Parental and Spousal Abuse, Spousal Abuse

I live in Monroe County in NYS. Am I sure it actually matters where in this country you live? No, I am not. I have spent most of my life in NYS and all of that time I was with one abuser or another. What I can start with isContinue Reading

An Idea Of Love That Lasts…

On: March 12, 2018

In: Personal

Written around 1997-1999 Now, to start I want to tell you that the page this is linked to was the beginning of a great learning experience! I have read that page so many times with a great deal of tears until I talked to someone that really made me think.Continue Reading

It Began:

On: February 28, 2017

In: Personal

Tagged: Abuse, Abusers with no consequences, Andrew and Samanthas Dad, Begin Again, being lied to, Boundaries, Brett, child abuse, Childhood Abuse, Custody Battles, Divorce, Domestic Violence, Family Physical Abuse, Fear, Finding my filling, Heartbreak, idea of love, Lies, Longing for something, Loss, love, Married Young and Abused, My Book, NYS Domestic Violence, OP, Orders of Protection, Parental and Spousal Abuse, Protecting my heart, Spousal Abuse, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart

The search was on. I have searched for years to find what was missing. What it was I couldn’t figure out. I tried everything one person could ever imagine. I started to really believe that I would never find what was missing in my life. I had kids, married, loved,Continue Reading

Next Part from My Book

On: January 13, 2017

In: Personal

Tagged: Abuse, Abusers with no consequences, Andrew and Samanthas Dad, Begin Again, being lied to, Boundaries, Brett, child abuse, Childhood Abuse, Custody Battles, Divorce, Domestic Violence, Family Physical Abuse, Fear, Finding my filling, Heartbreak, idea of love, Lies, Longing for something, Loss, love, Married Young and Abused, monroe county, Monroe County NYS, My Book, NYS, NYS Domestic Violence, OP, Orders of Protection, Parental and Spousal Abuse, Protecting my heart, Spousal Abuse, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart

I remember when she was about 4 months old and he picked her up and shook her at me telling me that if I didn’t do what he wanted he would hurt her and I almost died. I just continued to be the ever-changing wife to try and make himContinue Reading

Start of my book…

On: January 12, 2017

In: Personal

Tagged: Abuse, Abusers with no consequences, Andrew and Samanthas Dad, Begin Again, being lied to, Boundaries, Brett, child abuse, Childhood Abuse, Custody Battles, Divorce, Domestic Violence, Family Physical Abuse, Fear, Finding love, Finding my filling, First Loves, Having a Family, Having Kids, Heart, Heartbreak, idea of love, Lies, Longing for something, Loss, Lost Virginity, love, Married Young and Abused, monroe county, Monroe County NYS, My Book, Neglected, Neglectful parenting, NYS, NYS Domestic Violence, OP, Orders of Protection, Parental and Spousal Abuse, Protecting my heart, sex, Spousal Abuse, The Leave, Tragedy of the heart

As part of me starting to move on, become stronger, grow, and let things out to help me forgive I wanted to write my story. In the beginning, there was a man and a women who were together as just a fling. My father loved my mother but my motherContinue Reading