Challenge #2 – No sex of any kind
100 days with no sex at all. No sex, no sexual activity, no blow jobs, no receiving, no physical sexual contact with another person for a full 100 days! No exceptions. As a person who was sexually abused as a child I think my view of sex was different fromContinue Reading
Challenge #1 – 1 day a week with no online gaming
1 full day a week with no gaming – no gaming at all. From the time I wake up till I wake up the next morning. A little background… This week of 6/11/2018 I am going to spend some time evaluating what day I might game the most onContinue Reading
Considering a few challenges this year…
I started thinking about what things I would like to do. What might help everyone in my life including myself. Some of these I will complete relatively quick like #4 on my list. Others are longer challenges that will take some time, effort, and monitoring. I will be successful. SoContinue Reading
The overwhelming fear and paranoia start again
Today I get the new reports from CPS. I am excited that it will all be over with very soon and don’t really read all the fine print. I send a copy to my VWA (Sheriff Department Victim Witness Advocate) and she replies with a HUGE texted email: They releasedContinue Reading
Abusers that get away without consequences
I live in Monroe County in NYS. Am I sure it actually matters where in this country you live? No, I am not. I have spent most of my life in NYS and all of that time I was with one abuser or another. What I can start with isContinue Reading
Playing God
A while back my therapist told me I needed to stop playing God with my relationships. I am finally starting to understand this concept and working on it every day with all of my relationships. Examples: When I dated Anthony, who I have known most of my life, his exContinue Reading
Abusers that get away without consequences
I live in Monroe County in NYS. Am I sure it actually matters where in this country you live? No, I am not. I have spent most of my life in NYS and all of that time I was with one abuser or another. What I can start with isContinue Reading
Today my therapy appointment was eye opening
This afternoon I had therapy. I had an amazing realization… Yesterday I had court and my ex, John, was in court using the phone. It was an odd situation to say the least but then when he requested our new address and the Judge said he was not inclined toContinue Reading
Another ex shows back up in my life and this one is emotional trouble for me
After my first marriage broke up because he failed at killing us I ended up dating a great guy named Dan O. He was a few years older than me, still a virgin, very religious, and a great friend for a long time before we dated. I remember the firstContinue Reading
An Idea Of Love That Lasts…
Written around 1997-1999 Now, to start I want to tell you that the page this is linked to was the beginning of a great learning experience! I have read that page so many times with a great deal of tears until I talked to someone that really made me think.Continue Reading
To The Sperm Donor Who Thinks He’s A Father
To The Sperm Donor Who Thinks He’s A Father Found this to be a great read! This has been very similar to my motherhood!Continue Reading
The frustration that comes from being lied too
Yesterday I was so excited having been told by the sales lady at Vision Kia in East Rochester, NY that she would be picking me up this morning to get my vehicle. She said the financing was set and she would pick me up after running out to drop offContinue Reading
Day done and I think tomorrow morning I will be happy
Spent a lot of time at the Vision Kia Dealership today and decided on a vehicle. They said everything will be ready for me to pick it up in the morning! So… unless anything goes completely crazy I will pick it up in the morning! WOOHOO They will be puttingContinue Reading
Purchasing my first vehicle alone as a single mom
WELCOME TO PURCHASING A VEHICLE AS A SINGLE MOM 101 This process is hell on earth and exhausting! I started with what I wanted vs what I needed… Need: SUV or bigger for 5 people and more Reliability Tinted windows because my son has sensory issues and the tint helpsContinue Reading
The snow has come back to the ROC
This morning all prepared to go get myself a vehicle I open the front door and the snow is high enough to cause me strain when trying to open the screen door! Love the many seasons in this area of the country but HATE snow at this point! It hurtsContinue Reading
The new dating perspective
Well as a mom of five kids I started out thinking dating was going to be really difficult no matter what. I think if some guy told me he had five kids I would be a little worried. Hear what I mean? Things required to date me? Honest even ifContinue Reading
Middle of the night raid on my street…
That was the most terrifying thing I ever saw. The police, 8 cars, all pulled up in front of my house with no headlights on or anything. They snailed up stopped the vehicles and then all got out and met in the middle of the road. They then proceeded toContinue Reading
A crazy out of my typical night!
Last night I went out with a long time friend of mine, Richard. It was a blast. We went to Nosh a restaurant that is a bit too trendy for me but it was beautiful inside. We then went to 585 Burger Bar and enjoyed some music from the liveContinue Reading
My youngest daughter needs surgery
I have g/b twins and they are so amazing! My daughter, the twin, was scheduled for surgery today. She is going to have her tonsils and adenoids removed in 3 weeks. I am happy yet nervous about it. I know she has needed it done becasue she sounds like sheContinue Reading
Credit Score is up… YAY!
The scoop is this: In 2016 around June my credit score was over 700. I could have gotten anything on credit that I wanted. Little did I know that my ex-husband would do everything to destroy my ability to have a financial future. He was running my credit, trying toContinue Reading