Okay so I met this guy on the 20th of January 2018.  His name is Joe and he is about 11 months older than me.  That in itself is odd because I have never liked anyone my age.  Typically I like older men partly for looks and partly for stabilityContinue Reading

The moment when you find out people are all over watching you for a lying abuser that you are desperately trying to hide from!  If I cannot trust the people around me then who do I trust?  What are my options?  Will I go crazy not being able to shareContinue Reading

Well it was interesting today that the van BS is finally over.  This was a long, stressful, miserable situation for 9 months.  I have been fighting with this thief for way to long over him stealing my money and lying about stuff he put into my loan paperwork. This isContinue Reading

So the divorce was rescheduled… I really love our judge because I know he isn’t fooled by how my ex, John, trying to present himself.  With that said I am emotionally exhausted by this process!  Funny note is that a bunch of people keep telling me to just hold outContinue Reading

My oldest daughter is about to turn 22 years old and she has never, since I took custody, been abused by me.  I was abused my whole life, my father was abused, his father was most likely abused as well.  As far as more family history about abuse I amContinue Reading

When people are asking me questions about my abusive marriages it is funny because some of the people make faces as if what I have lived with isn’t abusive really.  Here is the thing with abuse:  It can come in many forms and from any relationship.  Examples from my life:Continue Reading

As a follow-up to my post about first loves I figured I would give some nitty gritty about Steve and me. We met at Tops Friendly Markets in Panorama Plaza, Penfield, NY in the ’90’s.  It was really love at first sight for me.  I was not his first butContinue Reading

WOW, this was a complete doozy.  4 years ago today my Ma passed away.  She is not my biological mother but she is the closest thing I ever had to a mom.  She was the only person who always loved me unconditionally.  I digress, When I was 14 I metContinue Reading

So last year I dated this guy.  For several weeks we just spoke on the phone for 10 hours a night.  We would talk from around 10pm to 8am when the kids were getting up.  He seemed great and we had a ton of things in common.Continue Reading

Dear Greg, After almost 8 months of dating you text break-up with me.  No reason, no sorry, a complete blindside. I get it in a strange way…  you were always holding something back.  You had a secret that you were holding so tightly but why not be a man?Continue Reading

This was written by me around the year 2001: Sometimes I am hurting because I still can’t understand why exactly you did all of the things that you have done. I know at this point I will never look at you as the man that I thought I once knew.Continue Reading

Let me see… all about me? I was born in 1978 to a mother who was addicted to drugs and a father who was very abusive.  They never married and the physical abuse, neglect, and verbal abuse started before I was even a year old.  I was born in Rochester,Continue Reading

The month of April 2017 will be the month of me sharing all about myself… I will share some of my book, some of my writings from when I was really young, and other stuff about me as a person.  Where I came from, how I got here, and whatContinue Reading

The search was on. I have searched for years to find what was missing. What it was I couldn’t figure out. I tried everything one person could ever imagine. I started to really believe that I would never find what was missing in my life. I had kids, married, loved,Continue Reading