6/11 The morning is starting out very difficult. I have already said 13 words between the kids good mornings and Andrew asked me questions. It was very hard not giving full sentence detailed responses. THIS MIGHT BE A LOT HARDER THAN I EXPECTED! Day 1 and I have already spokenContinue Reading
1000 words – Giving myself ONLY 1000 words for the week. This would include any texts, any online facebook posts, any chatting on the phone, any talking in person… anything other than this blog that would be communicating with another person. It would require me to keep track of allContinue Reading
100 days with no sex at all. No sex, no sexual activity, no blow jobs, no receiving, no physical sexual contact with another person for a full 100 days! No exceptions. As a person who was sexually abused as a child I think my view of sex was different fromContinue Reading
1 full day a week with no gaming – no gaming at all. From the time I wake up till I wake up the next morning. A little background… This week of 6/11/2018 I am going to spend some time evaluating what day I might game the most onContinue Reading
I started thinking about what things I would like to do. What might help everyone in my life including myself. Some of these I will complete relatively quick like #4 on my list. Others are longer challenges that will take some time, effort, and monitoring. I will be successful. SoContinue Reading
Today I get the new reports from CPS. I am excited that it will all be over with very soon and don’t really read all the fine print. I send a copy to my VWA (Sheriff Department Victim Witness Advocate) and she replies with a HUGE texted email: They releasedContinue Reading
I live in Monroe County in NYS. Am I sure it actually matters where in this country you live? No, I am not. I have spent most of my life in NYS and all of that time I was with one abuser or another. What I can start with isContinue Reading
A while back my therapist told me I needed to stop playing God with my relationships. I am finally starting to understand this concept and working on it every day with all of my relationships. Examples: When I dated Anthony, who I have known most of my life, his exContinue Reading
This afternoon I had therapy. I had an amazing realization… Yesterday I had court and my ex, John, was in court using the phone. It was an odd situation to say the least but then when he requested our new address and the Judge said he was not inclined toContinue Reading
After my first marriage broke up because he failed at killing us I ended up dating a great guy named Dan O. He was a few years older than me, still a virgin, very religious, and a great friend for a long time before we dated. I remember the firstContinue Reading
To The Sperm Donor Who Thinks He’s A Father Found this to be a great read! This has been very similar to my motherhood!Continue Reading
Yesterday I was so excited having been told by the sales lady at Vision Kia in East Rochester, NY that she would be picking me up this morning to get my vehicle. She said the financing was set and she would pick me up after running out to drop offContinue Reading
Spent a lot of time at the Vision Kia Dealership today and decided on a vehicle. They said everything will be ready for me to pick it up in the morning! So… unless anything goes completely crazy I will pick it up in the morning! WOOHOO They will be puttingContinue Reading
WELCOME TO PURCHASING A VEHICLE AS A SINGLE MOM 101 This process is hell on earth and exhausting! I started with what I wanted vs what I needed… Need: SUV or bigger for 5 people and more Reliability Tinted windows because my son has sensory issues and the tint helpsContinue Reading
This morning all prepared to go get myself a vehicle I open the front door and the snow is high enough to cause me strain when trying to open the screen door! Love the many seasons in this area of the country but HATE snow at this point! It hurtsContinue Reading
Well as a mom of five kids I started out thinking dating was going to be really difficult no matter what. I think if some guy told me he had five kids I would be a little worried. Hear what I mean? Things required to date me? Honest even ifContinue Reading
Last night I went out with a long time friend of mine, Richard. It was a blast. We went to Nosh a restaurant that is a bit too trendy for me but it was beautiful inside. We then went to 585 Burger Bar and enjoyed some music from the liveContinue Reading
My oldest daughter is about to turn 22 years old and she has never, since I took custody, been abused by me. I was abused my whole life, my father was abused, his father was most likely abused as well. As far as more family history about abuse I amContinue Reading
When people are asking me questions about my abusive marriages it is funny because some of the people make faces as if what I have lived with isn’t abusive really. Here is the thing with abuse: It can come in many forms and from any relationship. Examples from my life:Continue Reading
Dear Greg, After almost 8 months of dating you text break-up with me. No reason, no sorry, a complete blindside. I get it in a strange way… you were always holding something back. You had a secret that you were holding so tightly but why not be a man?Continue Reading
