My oldest daughter is about to turn 22 years old and she has never, since I took custody, been abused by me. I was abused my whole life, my father was abused, his father was most likely abused as well. As far as more family history about abuse I am unsure… it is not really something people write about for generations to come.
There are so many events from my childhood that have changed the trajectory of my life.
All childhood traumas:
My father tried to drown me in the bathtub. One day I was taking a bath and he charged into the bathroom, put both hands on my head, and then held me under the water. I was flailing and freaking out under the water.
This has left me with a 32 year long terror of water and drowning! I am going to start working on my complete fear of water. It is one of my goals now that I am completely abuse free. I think it negatively impacts my kids that I am terrified of water. I want them to love and enjoy being in the water!
My father shoved me off the top of a small staircase, head first, into a snowbank. I was trapped and sobbing upside down for what felt like hours. It was only a few minutes but I was covered in