Daughter like father…
2022-12-20
exactly how he acted in our marriage… Threatening me, screaming at me, throwing things at me, needling at me…Continue Reading
Ummm, yeah really… Some females are the worst
2022-12-18
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Tagged: Abusive siblings, Awful Mom, Bad Mom, Chrissy, CP, EJ, Kids, Leo, Leon, Neglectful parenting
7 minutes down the road and get a phone call from him and he is hyperventilating. He is screaming and so upset it is distressingContinue Reading
The unspoken topic lately
2022-12-03
Yes, abortion rights are important! BUT… abortion is not something anyone should choose lightly. The physical and emotional long-term consequences are indescribable. Continue Reading
Sticky
Truth in which we live
2022-12-01
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Someone said recently that you cannot expect anyone to read what you write if you are still hiding. That hit me so hard because I am always hiding who I really am, hiding some of the horrors that I have experienced, my name, my real truth. I am unsure ifContinue Reading
About Leon’s family
2022-10-22
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Leon’s parents were married in the ’70s and had 3 children. Leon is the older of three boys. His two brothers are 10 and 11 years younger than him. His Dad, we call him Big JW, is a GM lifer who is a full-on patriarch. He uses his money toContinue Reading
Seabreeze amusement park visit 2022 was exciting
2022-08-16
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Every year for the past few years we have all gone to Seabreeze amusement park as a big family adventure. Leon’s dad treats and it is a blast. This year was really interesting because his dad isn’t speaking to me. It was really uncomfortable to try and speak to someoneContinue Reading
Sticking up for my kid’s mental health
2022-07-29
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The other day we all went to the ice cream place for family ice cream. It was Leon, the four kids, and Leon’s Aunt and parents. The night was going well until Elyjah (Leon’s son) started behaving in a way that was a bit childish. He was digging in theContinue Reading
What you find when snooping
2020-07-08
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Tagged: Cheater, Chrissy, Leo, Leon, Liar, Liars, Online cheating, pandoras box, privacy, risk, Rub my back, snooping, text cheating, texting, texts
I have always prided myself on respecting other people’s privacy but I recently had a moment of violating the privacy of another. What happens when you violate a person’s privacy? You run the risk of finding out information that can emotionally hurt you! And here we are… I violate privacyContinue Reading
To “those people”
2020-02-17
I know people who actually emotionally hurt me just by how they obsess over things on Facebook. I know that is a strange thing to say but how they react to things on Facebook causes me distress! For example, I know this guy who is in his late 40s, heContinue Reading
After everything gets crazy
2019-11-19
Here is a tiny run down of what has been going on here: * Finishing the move * My son got his tonsils and adenoids removed * I got my wisdom teeth pulled and experienced an infection and dry socket * Unpacking a ton * Ups and downs of beingContinue Reading
Am I scared to be lonely
2019-11-05
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All of my friends tell me I am not lonely. My therapist tells me I am angry, and it makes the loneliness feel bigger. My Ma always said I am not lonely because I have all my kids. I have always had moments of feeling alone. I have experienced relationshipsContinue Reading
All the secrets I have been keeping
2019-10-30
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Tagged: All the secrets I keep, Anthony, Bio-mom, family, my life, Natalie, purging, purging secrets, secrets
I have spent 40 some odd years insisting I am moral and honest but in actuality, I have been keeping so many secrets all my life… Let the purge begin… * My 1st cousin tried to stick something in me sexually when we were 12. * When I was 10Continue Reading
Bipolar meds start this week
2019-10-27
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After my recent diagnosis of bipolar, I have now been put on medication to help stabilize my moods. Meds are Oxycarbazepine for mood swings and hydroxyzine for anxiety. I hate the idea of taking any medications let alone mood-related chemicals. If I am being honest I am scared to loseContinue Reading
Time to adjust my priorities
2019-08-30
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I have always thought my priorities were in check until the past few months when I began wondering if maybe I have had them all wrong. I saw my life as a set of priorities that started with Family! Priorities: Family (including the LTG if he exists) – I believeContinue Reading
The day of therapy
2019-08-30
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Leo sees a therapist which I support and cheer for but I wish he would also discuss things with me after therapy. WHY you ask? Not because I feel it is my business or anything but because when he leaves therapy he acts very strange towards me. Example is yesterday…Continue Reading
Long-term guy
2019-08-29
It is so funny because when I was younger I never dated and then when I was in a relationship it was never about the long-term guy for my life. I dated more for fun if I dated and I NEVER thought about longevity of a relationship. Funny thing thatContinue Reading
Thinking about doing some traveling
2019-08-29
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Last night I decided to start researching for traveling. I have always wanted to travel because it is something I really love. I borrowed these books:Continue Reading
Inside me
2019-08-28
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Have you ever had things you didn’t want to say out loud about your feelings? Feelings that are so deeply ingrained in your soul that no matter how much therapy, how much discussion, how much you try to get it out it is still sitting there lingering all over yourContinue Reading
Depression at 40 something with 5 kids
2019-08-28
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Emotions are a strange thing when you are in your 40’s. If you are chemically balanced, which I am not, it is still difficult for more females because some many things are starting to change in your body as well as in your mind. For starters your life is halfContinue Reading
My 20 year old son is finally moving out…
2019-08-27
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My son, 20 year old, came into my room tonight overly excited that his apartment was approved and he would be moving next week! I am going to explain the two pieces of myself that were in this situation. Part 1: Mom part This part of my was thrilled andContinue Reading