After a ton of soul searching and thinking I made a firm choice to let Val go.
I am unsure I can forget but I am working on forgiving. My thought process is this: I wanted to self destruct our relationship at least a dozen times before he hit the button. While we had agreed we weren’t going to have any interaction with the opposite sex I had consider it so many times and almost done it. I was driven by fear of how strong my feelings for him were.
Am I sure that was the driving factor behind what he did? NO, I am not and there is no chance I will ever be 100% on it because I can only say what is in my own mind and body. I am choosing to try however.
Lets see where this takes me… Heartful or Heartbreak