Recently excited to open an Instagram account for this blog I was disappointed very fast after creation!  I have emailed and tried to contact them in every way I could find but have yet to receive any answers about why they closed my account within hours of me creating it! Continue Reading

Last night lying in bed with Leo. We are both naked snuggled up and sex will be happening but then he starts talking about Chrissy his ex! Ummm seriously? I became so turned off that sex really was crappy and didn’t last. Today I called him and said: I haveContinue Reading

Leo has a great family! He has 2 brothers, his mom, his dad, his son. He is the oldest out of the siblings. His middle brother is married and has a daughter. His baby brother has a son. Over the past few weeks he has gotten overly upset with meContinue Reading

To start I bleached my kitchen completely. Then I bleached the dining room. Then I cleaned the floors by hand with bleach. Then got cleaned up and got in bed ALONE! Am I really so unwanted or unlovable? I refuse to drown my sad lonely feelings in random meaningless sexContinue Reading

Self-Destruct Button

Several years ago when I was feeling really bad about myself I met a guy who was really easy to have sex with and nothing else. No relationship, no chatting, nothing more than crazy rough semi-abusive sex and poof he would be gone. I wouldn’t need to do any ofContinue Reading

I am a very verbal person and I don’t pull any punches about that fact. I need that verbal connection and I need it regularly. I honestly tell everyone that the more I feel unable to communicate with a person the more out of the relationship I will be. LeoContinue Reading

Last night we decided to take all of the kids to a drive-in movie at Vintage Drive-in. They were showing Lion King and Aladdin. The night was off to a bit of a rocky start as Leo’s son was not happy about eating the pulled chicken I made for everyoneContinue Reading

Woke up with Leo in bed next to me… and wanting to have sex. I am always up for some sex but this morning really felt like a: he needed to finish and not go to work loaded… Whatever, we had sex a little bit and then he finished alone…Continue Reading

Third Eye Blind, Jimmy Eat World, and Ra Ra Riot were the artists playing! I was mostly excited to see Jimmy Eat World because the song I dedicate to my Ma is by them. Jimmy Eat World – Hear You Me Well Leo was late arriving at my house butContinue Reading

It has been a straining several days and I wasn’t looking forward to the awkward drive from my house to the lake 50 minutes away with Leo and the kids. Leo has been avoiding relationship discussions for weeks now and as we are at the 6 month period I feltContinue Reading

From around 2001-2002 Sometimes I am hurting because I still can’t understand why exactly you did all of the things that you have done. I know at this point I will never look at you as the man that I thought I once knew. After all of the stuff andContinue Reading

Written around 1999-2001 Now, to start I would like to tell you all a little story that happened to me a long time ago! It all started one night while I was laying in bed with my husband after a long day of arguing. It all started when we gotContinue Reading