Is my current paranoia real or not? I have always lived with a certain amount of paranoia from my childhood trauma. I usually am pretty good about knowing that my paranoia is not real but lately I am just certain that my paranoia is spot on! Here it is in
As many already know I am all about growth and self analysis although I do also attend regular therapy. In relationships I am typically the inexperienced person because I have NOT had really any healthy relationships. All of my past is riddled with a ton of every type of abuse.
The day was emotional, long, full of heart filled conversation. Today was the closest I have ever felt to a happy and healthy family of my own and now I cannot sleep. It was a wonderful night and you are always amazing with my kids. Dinner at the table as
To start I bleached my kitchen completely. Then I bleached the dining room. Then I cleaned the floors by hand with bleach. Then got cleaned up and got in bed ALONE! Am I really so unwanted or unlovable? I refuse to drown my sad lonely feelings in random meaningless sex
I have been a wife and mother most of my life. I have never had a time when I wasn’t raising kids or taking care of a full household like a wife. This is the first time I am really NOT a wife and it feels virtually impossible to turn
Why am I not single? I just don’t understand why not just be single because I spend 65% of my time alone and almost every night of the week in bed alone so why am I dating Leo? I get so lonely at night and it is really hard to
Black and white: I think of relationships like this… If a couple loves each other -> I love you, think you love me. If a couple can agree on the fundamentals (not in order of importance): Lifestyle (Housing, cleanliness, personal hygiene, etc) Children (parenting styles, discipline, priorities, etc) Future (goals