Is my current paranoia real or not? I have always lived with a certain amount of paranoia from my childhood trauma. I usually am pretty good about knowing that my paranoia is not real but lately I am just certain that my paranoia is spot on! Here it is in
As many already know I am all about growth and self analysis although I do also attend regular therapy. In relationships I am typically the inexperienced person because I have NOT had really any healthy relationships. All of my past is riddled with a ton of every type of abuse.
This is a crazy heading for my post but the “I was a great wife” statement ties into all that is rattling around in my head tonight. As I was showering tonight I started thinking about the different relationships I have had in my life with men. I thought about
To start I bleached my kitchen completely. Then I bleached the dining room. Then I cleaned the floors by hand with bleach. Then got cleaned up and got in bed ALONE! Am I really so unwanted or unlovable? I refuse to drown my sad lonely feelings in random meaningless sex
Why am I not single? I just don’t understand why not just be single because I spend 65% of my time alone and almost every night of the week in bed alone so why am I dating Leo? I get so lonely at night and it is really hard to
I keep waiting for you to show up.Waiting for you to show your love for me.Hoping that how I show up for you will be how you show up for me.Promises that you will call and then no calls received.Promises that you will show up and spend time with me