Many people do not know but 18 years ago I gave a child up for adoption.  I found out I was pregnant at the beginning of a separation from my physically abusive ex-husband.  On Easter that year I found out I was pregnant.  Terrified, alone with 2 toddlers, and worriedContinue Reading

It is rare that you find a person who stands next to you no matter how bad things get.  It is rare that you find someone who is as honest, full of heart, and brilliant all in one person that will never be the sexual love of your life butContinue Reading

Things are over with Leo but today he came over to help me work on my 3D printer and then I screwed the fuck out of him! I really needed the release and since I am not a slut and don’t want to sleep around I just told him toContinue Reading

When you are dating a guy who pushes and pulls you away like a yo-yo constantly it is always a struggle to know if you should hold on. Tonight was the over button. Leo raised his voice at me and I stopped him. I told him I didn’t want toContinue Reading

I have a lot of things going on in my life constantly. I am always juggling a ton of different things. It is the single mom life… My question I pose is what are other single mom priorities as it relates to who YOU are as a human being, female,Continue Reading

Seriously… I think someone needs to help me because I don’t think I can handle any of this anymore! Chrissy is more of our relationship than I am. There are times when he calls me Chrissy! He sneaks into the bathroom to talk to her. He walks to a privateContinue Reading

I grow personally, emotionally, mentally I prioritize getting myself help even in the worst situations I have not let my past abuse stop me dictate my present or future I work hard at being a good mom I am a great human being and always do for the people IContinue Reading

Last night Leo showed up and had a bag of clothes. He looked at me and said so where is my drawer? He now has clothes in the drawer! WOW! I honestly don’t know what to do or say. I really firmly believed he wasn’t ever putting anything in theContinue Reading

A few days ago I spent time with Leo’s mom. I have thought since the beginning that she was a wonderful human being but then I spent some real alone time visiting with her and now I am 100% sure she is phenomenal! Not only has she always been welcoming,Continue Reading

Abortion is a completely loaded topic! People constantly fight over the morality of it. There are arguments about my body my choice, when is a fetus actually a baby, is it murder, is it moral, is it against religious beliefs… I will start by saying this: I have had anContinue Reading

The day was emotional, long, full of heart filled conversation. Today was the closest I have ever felt to a happy and healthy family of my own and now I cannot sleep. It was a wonderful night and you are always amazing with my kids. Dinner at the table asContinue Reading

To start I bleached my kitchen completely. Then I bleached the dining room. Then I cleaned the floors by hand with bleach. Then got cleaned up and got in bed ALONE! Am I really so unwanted or unlovable? I refuse to drown my sad lonely feelings in random meaningless sexContinue Reading