I hate how you consume my body and mind without my ability to control you. I am angry that you sweep into my body and mind before I can prepare myself and attempt to stop you from dictating my feelings.
Why do you insist on directing my heart to those that you don’t direct towards me? If you encompass everything then why not give love back to me?
I have spent most of my life without you being given back freely to my heart and life and it has caused physical pain that is debilitating and makes me hate the idea of you!
Love… I wish you didn’t exist! I wish I could sweep you under the rug. I desperately need you to leave every part of me except for as it relates to my children and free me from your direction and control!
(inspired by the movie collateral beauty)