Make a killing

For several years I have loved a song: Make a killing sung by Amiee Mann. I always feel like it speaks to me. From the youngest age I was always watching the kids around me explore, play, laugh, sing… I never did all of that! I instead was busy being responsible. I spent my time cleaning, doing laundry, homework, following EVERY rule and instruction that my father ever gave me. I was always jealous of other kids… they were so happy and I was so worried! I was stressing about dishes, clean clothes, the dust collecting in different areas of my house. I wasn’t even a teenager and worried constantly about all of this stuff! I ate cereal every day for almost every meal and then on Sunday’s my Ma would have me over for a “real” meal. I would sleep in a small cubby hole under 2 beanbags, a few large comforters, and some pillows billowing myself a little breath hole. I was always struggling to sleep because of being hidden in this type of situation. I don’t really remember extremely joyful moments. I remember ALL of the stress, worry, terror, and emotional enormity of my life. This song has always represented my way of viewing others during my childhood. Verse 2 is what always gets me! I still wish I could now have some of those young and stupid moments so I could know fun. I don’t however because I know what I will end up paying the piper! I know it will all come home to roost sooner or later and I have never, even during my childhood, been prepared to pay up so I stay in my cubby hole!

[Verse 1]
There is nothing that competes with habit
And I know it’s neither deep nor tragic
It’s simply that you have to have it

[Chorus 1]
So you can make a killing
Oh you can make a killing
Oh you can make a killing

[Verse 2]
I wish I was both young and stupid
Then I too could have the fun that you did
‘Til it was time to pony up what you bid

[Chorus 1]
So you can make a killing
Oh you can make a killing
Oh you can make a killing

[Verse 3]
I could follow you and search the rubble
Or stay right here and save myself some trouble
Or try to keep myself from seeing double

[Chorus 2]
Or I could make a killing
Or I could make a killing
Oh I could make a killing
Yeah I could make a killing
Yeah I could make a killing

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